JiNg YeE bLoG

2012-01-17T00:29:00.001+08:00

Am I the one who is draggy? Am I the one who should get nag? You do feeling pissed off. So not do I? Keep asking and waiting like an idiot since last week. Is it so hard for you to give an answer whether you want to go or not. Is it so hard for you to do that? If at the first place you don feel like going den fine. I will go find another person so that I won't wait like an idiot. So pissed!! You said you will give me an answer tmr. I shall see whether you will give me. I will not ask for answer from you again tmr.

I regretted for doing it.

2012-01-03T22:49:00.003+08:00

got this special Christmas present from Kim today Thank you so much!:)

First photo for the year 2012!

beautiful? hahaha

actually i am wonder is it true that 2012 is the year that end of the world?haha.. i know a bit silly of thinking of that but a lot of people said so too? don believe huh? but what if is true? i still have a lot things have not try before and also have not go to those places that i wanted to go so much. So don't end so early please.

2011-12-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

went to try sheesha today with peeps. first time trying this. not too bad after all,though there is still a different between this and smoke a cig. i think i look really ugly on this photo but who cares i just love it.

meanwhile finish the flavour we play truth or dare. i really hate this game, especially the dare. i am not a brave person. so today the dare was to kiss the people within our group not cheek but lip to lip. Gosh! i have never done that before. but they force me to play:( so the first person i kissed was edmond. both of us were really shy and we just couldn't stop laughing. but in the end we still do it.

hmmm....anyway it was an awesome day today. i had lots of fun with them. thanks people i love you guys a lot. will be seeing them again tmr:) Nights people! i am going out now to have my dinner kum supper at bukit timah.

2011-12-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

why everyone seem like madding at me when i got back home? one said, eh..is 12am now not early at all. another one just quiet gave me a face. wtf? okay,i know i came back home late recently and i know i do have fault but is december and my holiday is just freaking two weeks only. once 2012 start which is 4 more days ltr i will be busy of studying for my upcoming exam. jan and feb gonna be a really busy months for me. i guess there will be no new clothes to wear for chinese new year, have to wear back the old to visit relatives.

i am broke, really broke that i nvr buy christmas present for anybody and also for myself. so this year no christmas present as there is no exchange present session. :( sigh..Money have been keep going out never come in before. transport need money, eat also need money, everything also need money. i think i gonna stop going out to cut down all these expenses.

2011-12-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

its not the same anymore. i felt really awkward just now. at the point time i really feel wanna run away get out from the place. Really! i really want to do so. But i didn't as today is ur special day.

No matter how hard i try, it will still remain the same.

No changes will be make.

i feel really terrible now.

2011-12-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

Feeling so nervous. tmr need to present my solution for the assignment. please pray for me that i can present well and also pray that UT for tme i can do well too.pray hard hard!!!:)

2011-11-27T01:31:00.000+08:00

Everything are just not going right. Especially after there is something wrong with my laptop.
Just now went to serangoon to find Luke to teach me how to do the coding but still have not finish yet. It's seen like stil got a lot to go. Seriously, I am stressed up with the coding.:(
I reached home late today again and dad scolded for reaching so late. But today I was doing my assignment. You think i playing outside is it? No! I am stressed up with the stupid assignment.
You didn't ask what I do today but you just scolded me for coming back home late. Do you know how stead is it when you have to do assignment after the UT ended. You don't know at all. You don't even ask me how was my UT and when I told you my laptop spoilt you just keep quiet and do nothing. And I have to settle all by myself. To ask around, to ask from people. I get nothing except a scolding from you.

2011-11-25T01:58:00.001+08:00

Do you know how hurtful it is when I know eveything through a friend? How hurtful when u saw all the words that you wrote about me. Such a lousy person. Knew it long time ago yet I just keep quiet pretend that I know nothing but actually I knew everything. Finally today, I couldn't take it anymore and couldn't tolerate your attitude, the words that you wrote down anymore. Had a quarrelled and dad came out from his room to ask us what happen. I broke down immediately even now Im still not okay yet. Feeling really terrible now. No one can't feel me.

All I need is a person who understand me, give me a hug when I need badly and listen to me with whole heart but it seem that I haven found one.

2011-11-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

Welcome to our family my little niece:)

2011-11-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

i got my first UT grade for this semester. i get 30/35 which is an A. YEAH! Happy!! i will still continue to work hard to maintain the grade. Another UT tomorrow, is database and i have no confident at all. no matter how much time i spent to look at the slides to try to understand but i just couldn't.:( am i going flunk tomorrow? i hope i wont, i had already tried my best. Paper please treat me well tomorrow, i'm begging you!

you are just take me for granted,not appreciate it at all.
fine! since den why should put in so much effort for you.

2011-11-12T17:21:00.001+08:00

went to Chinatown to have dinner ytd. the tastes of the food were good but we couldn't finish all. den after we went to Tanjong beach to see whether there is any event. Unfortunately, the event will be on today instead of yesterday. however, we still chill and chit chat there and we got to spent 11:11 11.11.11 together ytd.

see no demon at that time, but saw angel instead.

The feeling really terrible when you are feeling scared

but you couldn't shout it out.

2011-11-11T01:24:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is a special day which is 11.11.11, I thought we could go
have steamboat together at such a special day but you said you are meeting ur friends tomorrow night. Fine den! I don't want to waste such a special day to stay at home. I will go find my own plan since you are not free to go for a dinner.

I am getting fatter and fatter. And I know I won't deny, so from next week onward I will go for a run and some other exercise to slim myself down and also to keep myself fit. Hopefully I will be able to slim down before new year so that I will look nicer when I am wearing new year clothes. Who want to join me please tell me so that we can slim down or keep fit together and give each other support. TUMMY I DON WAN YOU PLEASE GO AWAY BEFORE NEW YEAR! I AM BEGGING YOU! :)

2011-11-09T21:12:00.001+08:00

these are the photo that i found that we took together. she had left us on Sunday. She is just 18 years old girl. such a young and adorable girl yet God take her away from us on Sunday. We miss you so much. i miss the time we spent together. Syahirah, you will be always in our heart. R.I.P

2011-11-05T16:12:00.000+08:00

WJC=Wanting,Jingyee and Cherie. they are really awesome which that my life cannot without them.
thank you gals when i am feeling low ur will always there to cheer me up, willing to lend me ur ears and listen to me. THANK YOU!:)

went to desaru last weekend. before we start our journey, my aunt gave us one bottle of bird nest to drink. good life isn't it? bird nest u really is a awesome drink. i want more can? :) desaru is a good to relax especially during the night, went to the beach with a bottle of alcohol,lying down, listen to the waves sound and look up to see the stars. we can't see much stars in Singapore due to the light so when i was at desaru last weekend the sky is full of stars. how precious and nice is that? however,no matter how fun how good is the life at there, everything still have to come to the end and and go back to ur real life and start with ur work again. 要先苦后甜还是要先甜后苦.

i cut this myself.:) At first i thought i couldn't do it coz there is always people helping me to cut, but thinking back other people can do it why can't i so i tried. i use 10 or 15mins to cut everything out. when i am cutting nadiah they all keep asking to give up and give them the knife and they will help me cut, but no i refuse to give them. and Yes, i prove to them, i prove to everybody that i can do it by myself without anybody help.I AM NOT 大小姐 . SO BETTER STOP CALLING ME LIKE THAT!

I look so chubby in this photo. but is cute isn't it? haha:) going to melaka tomorrow morning. gonna be fat again.:)

2011-11-03T00:05:00.000+08:00

UT tomorrow. i'm feeling very stress though is my favourite module. i am so nervous and stress:( i am afraid that i will have a lot of careless:(
Dear Lord,i pray that tomorrow will not be a very tricky paper and pray that you will give me strength to complete and do well for tomorrow. Amen!

2011-10-31T23:41:00.000+08:00

Everybody is back home early today and finally we got the chance to have dinner together, yet you spoilt it. Keep nagging non stop. Whats wrong with you? I don get it, why can't you just precious the night we have today, sitting down together to have our dinner happily and chit chat together. Why can't you do it? we never come back home to have dinner you nag, we come back home to have dinner together you also nag. what do you want? And i have no fault at all why you keep saying me like all is my fault. seriously i had enough of it! i never shout back doesn't mean i got fault,i am just showing respect to u. Don't test me u know me well enough, u know my temper.And since den i guess i will not come back home early, not to eat with you, not to have conversation with you. I guess I will find job or stay in school or friend's house till around the time u going sleep den i will go home.

I am so angry and upset right now. I need frolick,I need a long warm hug.

2011-10-29T00:00:00.001+08:00

have been crying often nowadays, can say every night when i am lying on the bed my tears will just rolling down from my eyes and after that i will just fall asleep with all the tears on my face. but i do not have a good sleep, keep waking up in the middle of the night. i am hoping that tonight i will have a good sleep thats all, if not i really need to buy sleeping pills to help me for getting a good sleep.

why do i care so much when you don't even care about me.

You are selfish, you just want to satisfy yourself to be happy, and you do not care about others feeling.

Every night I'd been here waiting waiting
懒得理我 我也在 tryin' tryin'
要你的时候 you're not here by my side
陪你的时候 你却shove me aside

Hey girl, you gotta listen to me
从今以後我不会再为你着迷
你的美 你的泪 你的笑
Doesn't matter now
我已不再想为你烦恼

你始终没有爱过 你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心 无力继续

这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得我想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心

除了想你 除了爱你
Wu~ 我什麽什麽都愿意
翻开日记 打开心情
Wu~ 我真的真的想放弃

你始终没有爱过 你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心 无力继续

这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情

我决定不为你而毁了心
为了你放弃爱情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
我决定不为你而毁了心
为了你放弃爱情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情

2011-10-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

today was not a good day, everything not going right. feeling so upset today.:(
however, its alright because i know tomorrow will be a good and fun day. i am looking forward to it. i will not allow anything to ruin my mood tomorrow.

i don't know why am i have the thought of wanna to ask you

out for a short meeting. should i or shouldn't i?

2011-10-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

cool right? suddenly have the thought of putting tattoo. haha.. so which design is nice? the design on the ankle? cool? nice? i wan that on my ankle!

As the time passed, i definitely will get use to it.

2011-10-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

this is the sweet that i couldn't live without now. just finished one big can of this and now i have another small can of this which bought by fat tummy yesterday. thank you fat tummy!:)

i am craving for chocolate and ck brought my favourite dark chocolate from his house to pass to me just now. thanks ck. i love all these chocolate.i will finished them but fat die me!! haha.. i will do more exercise no worry.:)

2011-10-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

syahirah was in a coma and i went to visit her today at tan tock seng. today was the 4th operation she had. her mother told us that actually the tumor alr inside her brain for years but she didn't know about it till this two month everything start to change and she also said that after every each operation she is getting better but after one day her condition will change again and the doctor said her chances of living is just 50 50 percents now. when i saw her just now i was totally shocked, the cheerful and smart girl that i knew suddenly is lying down on bed 4 times operation because of the stupid tumor inside her brain. i know she is a strong girl, i believe she will be alright soon. Lets pray for her. pray that she will be able to win the fight and back to the cheerful and smart girl again.:)

2011-10-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

data communication & networking is not a fun module. i don't understand today lesson and i am struggled with today RJ. I spent more than one hour to finish it. i dislike this freaking module. But so what no matter what i still have to try my best to make it clear and understand it fully. freaking hell!!! i am so stress up over it. i just hoping and pray that i will do well in this module. Pray hard!!!

slow and stupid! what a 'good encouragement'. might as well you don say anything.

2011-10-09T23:10:00.001+08:00

i hate those days where all i wanna do is sit in my room,under my comfy blankets, and cry myself to sleep, and forget about the whole world. And somehow today's one of those days.

what wrong with me? why do i cry like right now? the tears are simply just rolling down from my eyes that can't be control. maybe i should just let it be till i fall asleep. But what i really need right now is a warm hug that can make me feel better and comfortable.

2011-10-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

its Friday! its a sleepy Friday. it was the third day of school and i had knew most of my classmates, they are friendly and funny and they always like disturbing me,i don't know why. Sometime I'm wonder am i born to let people to bully? not just only current classmates, but my previous classmates does too. damn upset:( bully me like a fun one huh? but please don't over the limit.

Raining heavily when school just ended and again i wore white clothes with no umbrella with me but lucky i got my jacket to cover but whole body still wet.

Went to Sulivia's house to have a HTHT with her just now, but i fell asleep on her bed so we just had a very short HTHT. haha And i also met garry when i am on the way to bus stop to go home and so we stand at the side to chit chat for an hour(i thought it will just take a few minutes only) had a nice chat with him, he had grew i guess somehow just a little different with the time when i just know him.

most of the time a person change is when someone comes or leaves in their life.

2011-10-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

school start tomorrow.seriously i am not ready yet. how i wish tomorrow is still a holiday.:( hiaz..no matter still have to go anyway. Went to shopping with Wan Ting at Bugis today. spent a lot today,two shoes,two shirts,one skirt and one pair of earing and we went to do nail polish, so i only left 14 dollars to use for the rest of the days of this week. how sad!:( and i have to start saving money for my Bangkok/Bali and Taiwan trips.
saving money= eat lesser= slim down. hahahhahaha.Someone keep saying me i am fat so i have to really cut down.So please pray hard for me that i can persevere till the end!!!:) okay... shall sleep now if not i am going to be like a zombie in the class later. night!

am i too good for letting people to take advantage of me? taking me for granted?

2011-10-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

i was really guilty and upset that the watch is not with me and i left it over there just now. luckily we went back and found it. if not seriously i will cry and will be feeling guilty forever. i know i am super careless, not because i don't like the watch,i really forgotten that i put it there. i am sorry alright? i promise i will not anyhow put it anywhere again, it will always be on my wrist(except when bathing =) )

simply just don't get it the things that you do.

2011-10-01T11:13:00.003+08:00

my so call 'boyfriend' in other people eyes. LOL

went to sentosa with some of my classmates yesterday. was really a fun one and also tiring one, we played volley ball,captain ball and soccer. being so crazy, keep shouting here and there like nobody business. but who cares, i just do whatever i like. and i got injured by fu quan yesterday, just a small injury on my right elbow but when touches water u can really cry out. :(
School start on Wednesday, 5 weeks of holiday just passed like this. never do any meaningful things just keep working or stay at home watch drama. what a sad life:(

is hurt when the words were just came out from your mouth. i am wonder are you really happy?

2011-09-29T16:44:00.000+08:00

i used to so respect you but no longer anymore. i thought everything you do there was a reason behind but i was wrong. what i am thinking of you is totally different with what i saw of you. i saw the true color of you.

2011-09-23T12:22:00.000+08:00

All i need right now is just a hug. A hug that can make me feel better and comfortable.

2011-09-23T00:01:00.003+08:00

The tears welled up behind my eyes and they were waiting to fall.:(

2011-09-20T01:48:00.000+08:00

the question that i asked you, and the answer that you gave me, i will remember forever that will always be inside my brain. i got it, i really got it.

2011-09-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

class chalet today. was kind of boring actually,nothing to do and a lot of food left over. i am seriously tired and sleepy but i cannot sleep. Tomorrow still have to work,i am sure tomorrow i will be like a zombie.

at first i was happy but after what i had saw, thats really making me upset, very very upset now. feeling so sick of it.:(

2011-09-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

Went to lunar last night. I think there suit me better rather than club like power house. I don drink and dance much, i just like to listen to songs and sing along which lunar really suit me.=) And today was the first day working at Everlast and get to know two new friends Michelle and Yi Hong, they are kind and funny we talk really a lot because we were too bored no much customer come in to shop. I dislike this kind of job,though is an easy job but never do anything just standing there for 6 hours which can make me die seriously, the time pass too slow.

2011-09-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

second day of work, nothing much happened today but i am just very tired. When doing the data entry, my eyes were hurt and was getting smaller..but i am so glad that the time was passed very fast..
2 days one night chalet on next Monday, 3 more days to go!!! i am so excited about it. can't wait to see my classmates,especially Nadiah i got so much things to update her, i bet she also have the same feeling as me. i think we confirm will spend the whole entire night to bitch about..:)

2011-09-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

First day of work was not that good. late for 30mins because i took the wrong bus. All thank to my lovely sister gave me wrong info. She told me to take 168 but actually is 161. And the upset thing is i spent over 70 dollars this week, i do not know why am i spent so much, i never buy any stuff for this week.

this week met two new friends, Oliver and wan ting. both of them are really caring and easy going people.
Oliver have been accompany me chat these few days and also wanted to drive me home but i rejected. Thanks for being so caring.haha As for wan ting, she is a nice girl too, when the first day we met, already started to talk a lot like we know each other for very long time. maybe because both of us are cancer that's why we talk a lot.and she is a good partner to shopping too unlike someone when i shopping the person just standing outside the shop keep using phone. Angry! You know who you are. But anyway, i thank God that you plan this for me to know these two friends.:)

2011-09-11T01:01:00.000+08:00

i bet that you know everything of me, yet u pretend it in front of me. You said you dislike my friend because she is a hypocrite but i think you and her no different at all, both of you are the same. So before you saying people please think about yourself, ask yourself whether you have the right to say people or not. Shame on you seriously. 'no longer the same as before' this is perfectly so true. And i tell you it will never be the same as before.

i still don get it why you want to ask? it seem that there is no reason for you to ask isn't it? i am not petty. but i just don get it seriously. And yes, we quarreled. Thanks to you.

2011-08-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

this few days have been keep thinking of you...thinking of how well you treated me last time yet i treated you so badly. i don know why will i thinking of you right now and even hoping that you will just appear in front of me listen to whatever i am saying. i feeling so guilty that i pushed you away,walked away silently..how stupid? a guy who is good to me yet i pushed him away. :( i know i hurt you badly the only thing i can say is i am sorry really sorry. other than sorry i don know what else i can say to you anymore..if i got a chance to choose again i definitely will not choose to do that again. once again I AM SORRY.

2011-07-28T15:28:00.000+08:00

how much tears have i been drop? countless? sometime i am just feeling so tired for everything. and i simply just broke out in the bus and walking home with tears. i don't dare to look up when i am crying i am afraid people will see how bad looking am i. and i guess dad knew that i have been crying often nowadays and he talked to me passed few days and tell me all the relationship stuff and he ask me not to get into relationship so early as i will get hurt if i get in too early. he said if i wan to get into relationship he will not stop me but he advice not to. how nice is my dad... haha.. and after the talk between my dad and me. my mum suddenly look at me very serious and she asked a question.

mum: i ask you a question.
me: ya?what u wan to ask?
mum: tell me the true, do u have bf now?
me: of coz no mum.
mum: u sure? if don have why everyday you so late come back home?
me: is my birthday week of coz busy lah...haha

conversation ended!
how cute my mum and dad is? though they are busy with their work but they still will wait for me to go back home and when i reached home they will ask me have i eaten? and morning i always woke up late my mum will always buy breakfast for me. and today she bought my favourite tou hua for me..
Mummy and Dad i love you guys so much..though sometime ur keep nagging me to ask me clean my room and ask me to do something to the stink hamster. but no matter i still love you all. <3

2011-06-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

Till now i am still stuck, i am still lost in the jungle, inside there i was given two path to choose but i chose to remain there and not to choose anything. As i don't know which path is the best for me. i really have no idea. Yes,there is a choice but i am just too afraid to choose. i am afraid that i might lose something when i choose either one of it. had a nightmare last night, couldn't sleep well the whole night. i am just hoping tonight everything will be alright, no nightmare please.

all i need is just a simple warm hug that all.

2011-06-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

We, as a human always say we have no choice,which is Wrong. Actually there's always choice,is just that we are afraid to choose.

2011-06-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

i broke down today again..and there is only one person who are really concern about me be my side and the person is my lovely sister(sinyee). although she is not home,she still called me and asked me what happen. i couldn't speech up and i cried even badly when she called me. i can feel the love,care and concern from her. i really thank God for giving me such a wonderful sister in my life.

i have been praying to God recently,and i hope God you hear my words.
i hope you would give me the strength and courage to let me get through over it soon.

2011-06-04T16:18:00.000+08:00

i do guilty for what i had done,but other than that there is no other ways anymore.

let it go
有太多假设有太多揣测

2011-05-30T02:06:00.000+08:00

two days one night at aunt's house was really very short. the food,the fun,the chat at there is just making me not to come back here. i am feeling really "tired" when i coming back here. i don know why would i feel that. when i was there these two days i feeling really happy. There is nothing for me to think about, no stress no fear at all. But once i am back, lying on my bed hugging mickey there are a lot of things just came into my mind. Feeling so uncomfortable. Suddenly have a thought of going somewhere these coming short holidays. i feel like going to a place that is quiet,peaceful,comfortable to stay for a few days and i can relax myself.i guess my mind,my heart are just too much thing.maybe i will feel much better after coming back. i shall start planning where to go now.

2011-05-23T00:40:00.002+08:00

i am a sensitive person and yes, i will never deny it. i also did a personal test and the result said i am a very sensitive person too and extremely good at reading others. After i read through the test i felt that ir was really very accurate.90% true i think. But i don like it..i hate being so sensitive. Can say is super tiring being so sensitive. i rather don wan.

Being sensitive is a bad thing because u will keep thinking and often we will using our imagination. thinking of the good stuff are good but what if is not a very good stuff?isn't it it will make yourself feel uncomfortable? making you upset and spoil your whole entire day..is sucks right? i want to change to be not sensitive but what can i do? tell me please.

2011-05-18T14:16:00.000+08:00

tears will not solve the problem but will make you feel better.

2011-05-18T00:01:00.001+08:00

There are always things to make us worry and fear of. And no matter what, it will never come to the end,unless when it is time for us to go heaven to meet our lovely God.

Everyday i am keep thinking over and over again. And also thinking which is the best solution to solve the problem, the best for both. But in fact i found that there is no best solution for that as there is always have bad and good. If you want something u have to let go of other thing, u can't have both at the same time,he will never allow that. So we always need to choose or make our decision wisely,no regret for what we had chose.
However,there is always have the hard time for us,human being to make a good decision with no regret in the future.

I need your help, can you tell me what is true and what is not? which one should i believe?who should i believe?and how to trust a person?Now i am facing the difficulty of knowing which is the truth and which is not. i can't differentiate anymore. :(

2011-05-12T11:55:00.000+08:00

how i wish i could just leave the room like that without any consideration.

2011-05-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

As the time goes i feel that the distance between us has become far and is getting further.
what they told me today was right actually but i just insist that will not happen. i am just lying to myself actually.
Everyday have the same feeling, i couldn't describe how it feel maybe is fear. i don know.
i am just hoping whatever i am thinking will not be happen.

missing you.:)

2011-05-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

Showing it to the public that u have gotten a good grade and asking people how can he/she getting a so lousy grade isn't it you are arrogant?people never ask you for what grade you get yet you just posted it to show to everyone.Your action isn't it was showing off and is an arrogant person. please don't say you are not..coz u are just lying to people even lying to urself. Why don u just be humble and be grateful for what have u gotten? yet instead you are showing off and hurt the people feeling who are not getting a good grade. i couldn't say to you because i know i will be super duper angry if i do so and i know i will not say any nice words to you so i will be just writing it down here...i am just hoping that God will change you change to be a better person rather than being so arrogant to hurt people feeling.

2011-05-09T22:22:00.002+08:00

these few days the weather was really damn bad..40 degree!!! how hot is that?! its making me headache thus make my mood damn bad too. After bath straight sweat again.. Therefore there is no reason for saying no to air-con. LOL.. Air-con making me don feel wanna to wake up to go sch in the morning and there is no morning call and kind of don get use to it.. someone pls give me a morning call to wake me up!! i really need morning call now. :)

hate you! hate you for saying that!!U IDIOT!

2011-05-09T11:51:00.000+08:00

i know just how to whisper
i know just how to cry
i know just where to find the answers
and i know just how to lie
i know just how to fake it
i know just how to scheme
i know just when to face the truth
and then i know just when to dream

i know just where to touch you
i know just what to prove
i know when to pull you closer
i know when to let you loose

and i know the night is fading
and i know the time's gonna fly
and i'm never gonna tell you everything i've gotta tell you
but i know i've gotta give it a try
and i know the roads to riches
and i know the ways to fame
i know all the rules and then i know how to break'em
and i always know the name of the game
but i don't know how to leave you
and i'll never let you fall
and i don't know how you do it
making love out of nothing at all

out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
out of nothing at all
making love out of nothing at all

everytime i see you all the rays of the sun
are streaming through the waves in your hair
and every star in the sky
is taking aim at your eyes like a spotlight
the beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost
and it's looking for a rhythm like you
you can take the darkness at the pit of the night
and turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright
i've gotta follow it 'cause everything i know
well, it's nothing 'till i give it to you

i can make the runner stumble
i can make the final block
and i can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
i can make all the stadiums rock
i can make tonight forever
or i can make it disappear by the dawn
i can make you every promise that has ever been made
and i can make all your demons be gone
but i'm never gonna make it without you
do you really wanna see me crawl
and i'm never gonna make it like you do
making love out of nothing at all

out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
out of nothing at all, out of nothing at all
out of nothing at all

2011-05-08T02:11:00.001+08:00

these are the silly friends that i knew in my new life in rp. Everyday we have our lunch together, talk craps together and took all the silly photo together. they are really kind and the guys just love to disturb (especially fu quan) he really very irritating. sometime just hate the way he irritate me feel like killing him. LOL..the only thing he do that i like is he bring tissue to school everyday because i don have the habit to bring tissue so every time he will provide. every time i take tissue from him he will ask me why gal always don bring tissue out instead the guys will bring. this is a good question isn't it? i don have ans and i just took the tissue from him.:D

2011-05-08T02:08:00.000+08:00

2011-05-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't come back actually. i have make another bad decision again and yes i regretted. Every time planned to go out but after that the plan will become nothing. Two consecutive days. Yesterday planned to go in JB but due to no money and traffic jam we decided not to go den i thought of going to watch a movie before went in to JB at 10.30pm and also since last Wednesday we didn't get to watch. But in the end we still don get to watch. and sitting in the car just to watch you sleeping..The first disappointment.
Chose to come back yesterday because i want to go out with you and also you cancelled the meeting and i still rmb you said if i go in you will go out alone today so i chose to be back but yet another disappointment again.I don know what is the purpose you saying that u will be going out alone. you are just saying for fun or what? i don know i don get it too.. you apologized to me you told me you don't know where to go ,you don have money, no car,still got a lot of work to do and feeling very sian just feel like staying at home.. all these are excuses isn't it? will you tell her the same things also? i bet no...you will not tell her that you will just go out with her instead..every time you said i think too much but isn't it that is the fact? why every time i chose to be quiet don wan to say anything that is because i afraid that i will cry in front of you once i say like now i am crying in front of laptop while typing all these.. From the start you already planned not to go out with me isn't it? if so you can just tell me straight and i will not come back yesterday i will stay there, you don have to come in in the middle of the night just to drive me back.
BTW i know i will owe you a word i will said it now.THANKS! THANKS FOR DRIVING ME BACK YESTERDAY. i know you hate to drive in lately because is dangerous so i am really thankful that you came in yesterday and i know you really do hate me too as you keep saying yesterday.
But after all this is not the outcome that i want at all. two consecutive days. is it a revenge? because i didn't go pulau ubin with you last week. its really hurtful really...i guess i will not plan anything again. whatever i say where i wan to go all will become nothing..whatever i said are always rubbish like said it for fun not important to you at all.

EVERYTHING ARE JUST AN EXCUSE. if you don't have the heart,you don't want to go out with me you can just tell me straight. I REGRETTED FOR WHAT I HAD CHOSE WHAT I HAD DO. REALLY FUCK UP WITH EVERYTHING!

2011-04-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

I am sorry really very sorry. other than sorry i don't know what else can i say already...feeling really guilty now.. hiaz...i really have no other choice only can choose to go and visit her today.. as i don know when will i have the chance to see her again.. she become really thin, left with just the bones. she can't even open her eyes and mouth to talk to eat. everyone keep calling her she didn't reply at all just lie down on the bed.tear drops feeling really uncomfortable when looking at her like this yet. i can't do anything to help her get better but the only way i can do is to pray for her. pray that she will get well soon.
i really hope that you understand not i don wan to go out with you is i really have no choice. i am feeling damn guilty i know i have disappointed you. i am really sorry. SORRY! :(

2011-04-21T19:23:00.002+08:00

it was wrong to trust you to believe whatever you had said to me. It was very wrong, totally wrong.
i am feeling damn upset now. and yes i cried in the bus and all the way up to my room again . Wonder what kind of person are you actually?i hate to pretend. Every time i keep telling myself thats not the truth, don believe it. But actually yes, that's the truth.i am just finding an excuse to run away from the fact. Many times i tell myself that the more you know the more you will get hurt so why don't you just forget it and live happily everyday, but do you think that easy? Answer is NO. never that easy.
i feeling bad too but this is the only i can do.

the things that i knew is more than what you think.

2011-04-19T23:56:00.001+08:00

Second day of school...hmm..i simply really love today. love what we had learned today..we have science today.At the beginning when i know today we having science i was damn sian coz i really don love science but after the lecture start i start to love bio just bio only. i find it very interesting. i am kind of regret for not taking bio when i was in secondary. haha...but no point for saying right now.. anyway thats all for today shall head to sleep soon.

Don treat me like a replacement. when there is no one den you are thinking of to find me.seriously, i really don like it.

2011-04-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

Today was the first day of stepping into poly life. Early in the morning raining. what a 'good' start huh?

but that is not the point. The 'best' start is having gastric pain early in the morning and was suffered throughout the entire day and of course i don have the fully attention to concentrate in the lesson plus my tiredness i have been keep yawning. Do your know how the gastric pain is like? if u are thinking of to eat something to fill your stomach so that the pain will gone, actually tat is super wrong once the pain is there no matter what you eat you still can't get rid of the pain. only medicine will help actually. i ate 2 pieces of Actal at first the pain get worst but after 2 or 3 hours the pain slowly become lesser. have gastric is not funny at all it will spoil your whole entire day mood. so advice from me to you people is to have proper meals everyday(i should say this to myself actually. LOL)

Afterall, i still think that secondary school life is still better. :)

2011-04-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

everyday i will feel worry i will feel scared. have not been sleep well this few days, keep waking up in the middle of the night. slept 3 or 2 hours will wake up one time. morning will 8 or 9 plus wake up..why is it so? i don know too. 4 more days sch will be start and left 4 more days can wake up late.

pls let me sleep well these 4 more days.

2011-04-12T00:18:00.003+08:00

I don't know what is the reason for you to do that...i already know but i just wan to hear from you,is so simple yet i can't get it.. was quite upset when i heard that actually,but i still gave a smile.
i can't blame anybody but myself, i can't get angry over anybody but myself, because this is what i chose.since i chose that so i have to face the facts.

每一天都会感到不安，我讨厌这种感觉。

2011-04-09T22:16:00.001+08:00

today can say is SJY outing...haha..went to jurong point with sjy today to find present. go out with him will really make you feel very happy. he will just make you laugh non-stop. he is funny and nice guy,is great to know him really. He is a cheerful person i didn't see him unhappy before.when you are upset with anything just approach to him he will definitely try his best to cheer you up isn't it he is a great friend to know? how i wish i can be like him every time face always with a smile.
btw sjy thanks for making laugh like a crazy gal today.i know you like the crazy way i laugh..LOL.
but anyway thanks for the jokes today.. :D

2011-04-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

Feeling super tired today..maybe is because after the yesterday run..it been a long time since i run. after i ran one round ytd den i climb up from the first floor up to the level of home. i'm totally no energy, head spinning and i just lie down on the floor and stomach start to pain (the pain is the same as previous time) the pain really can let you cry out. my whole face was white and i vomited. i know i am weak and i know i am not good at running. the fact is i am not a runner. i can't run at all. i wan to slim down that why i went to run ytd but i failed. :(

2011-04-05T00:50:00.002+08:00

2011-04-05T00:29:00.007+08:00

Now then i know there are a lot of things that i still don't know

and i am still confused and also don't understand at all.

几乎每一天都会有一点的感到不安.

开心的过一天，不开心的过一天。

每个人都当然想开心的过每一天包括我在内但有时真的很难，

要每一天开开心心的真的没那么容易。

猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁
猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的
如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的
如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

2011-04-02T23:13:00.001+08:00

I hate those people will just talk but didn't action. seriously make me really fuck up with it.

But actually it seen like everyone including me are like that..will just say but didn't do it.

since myself are like that den i have no right to get angry over the person who are also like that right?

but when you had already promise the person that you will do it isn't you have to fulfill the promise? if you got any reasons that you can't at least you tell the person but not just do your own things and waiting for the person to come and ask you right? what kind of responsibility is tis? after the person ask you den you say your reasons and keep apologize.if u think u can't do it or make it you should tell the person early isn't?and if u can't pls don make promises. No matter how many time apologize already no use because of your action the person will not ask you to do anything. you deserve the punishment den. not being cruel, this is fact once the trust have been broken mean is broken. is too late to regret.

2011-03-24T00:28:00.002+08:00

I GIVE UP!

2011-03-23T20:48:00.001+08:00

I still remember what dad had said to me,he said things changed doesn't mean is always bad maybe the changed is good.Sometime is the way we think,is always our human mind thinking of all the bad points.
当事情变的时候不要认为一定是不好的他的变也可能是好的，只是看我们怎么去想。

What another wasted day..i know i have been wasting a lot a lot of my precious time..but i left only 3 more week and the school will be start. i am thinking of to go out or oversea to have fun but its seen can't,no one i can ask to go with me. People either working or study.they are all busy with their life but i am like an apple staying at home the whole entire day to just watch show non-stop and the apple will be rotten soon i guess.haha This Saturday i will be going to Penang for two days after that will be going to Genting for 3 days so next Wednesday i will be back but i am thinking of to staying at JB for another week. i don know should or shouldn't i. either come back home or staying there will be just a wasting time. I am still considering

2011-03-23T00:24:00.001+08:00

走 by 蔡旻右 i knew this song from a taiwan show but i can't it at youtube yet. shall wait and will share it here when i found it.

就怕天黑得太快
来不及把寂寞给藏起来
我想你很想你
想念变成了习惯
不知不觉对你依赖
只到现在才明白
原来爱需要大声说出来
这一次我多想
用尽全力抱紧你
抢救我们爱得危机

走如果你真的想要

走消失在我过得生活

我没有快乐的理由

走可不可以你不要走

爱怎么说散就散了

告诉我你不会舍得

只到现在才明白
原来爱需要大声说出来
这一次我多想
用尽全力抱紧你
抢救我们爱得危机

走如果你真的想要走

消失在我过得生活

我没有快乐的理由

走可不可以你不要走

爱怎么说散就散了

告诉我你不会舍得

oh~走如果你真的想要走
我放下一切的拥有
陪你走到人海尽头
走要走就我们一起走
别丢下落单的一个
别没收幸福的快乐

2011-03-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

i really don't get it..why every time you looking for friends is when tai is busy or when both of you are quarrel. friends to you is what actually. when ppl is finding u msg u call u yet you can just ignore and continue doing your stuff. have you think of how they will feel?i bet you don't and i bet you don't even care.feeling very frustrating with it..please wake up..don't wait till u lost everything den regret after that,that will be too late.

2011-03-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

what a waste day today. have been staying at home the whole entire day. really bored and i am hide inside my room to watch show...Sunday is gone.i think i shall go malaysia to stay for a week or more than that maybe will be better.

2011-03-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

whats wrong with me today? i have no idea actually. maybe i am just a little pissed or maybe i am just too tired.
easily no mood,pissed off and frustrated today. till now still the same.
watched world invasion today,and i am wonder does the world really have aliens?wonder what if the show had showed is true and they will come one day to our home and destroy everything that we had?what if....there are too many if, too many questions mark in my mind. i am kind of worry actually. things have been keep changing and a lot of things happened. i am afraid i am scared. :( but so what if i am afraid, there is no help too. what will happen and when will happen in the future no one know it. we all just have to wait.

2011-03-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

what a nice outing today..met up with some of the ex classmates today..went for bowling den dinner at swensen. really awesome.must organise again. have a nice chat with omesh and ms lin. she told me wat happened to her and gave me a lot of advice. what a nice teacher. haha. love her lots. thank you very much ms lin. :)
today my six sense was correct. in the afternoon have a strong feeling that you will disappoint me. but i am still hoping that u will not, but in the end the feeling my six sense was right. YOU DISAPPOINTED ME! :(

2011-03-15T12:23:00.000+08:00

i don know what should i do what i should choose. i am confused. please someone lead me the way.

2011-03-10T00:33:00.000+08:00

how i wish i can leave now .. and yes is right now..
i know wat is bad wat is not worth it i can differentiate wat is wat...
and i also spot out everything and now are all inside my mind. i just cant get out although i know wat is good and bad for me. my six sense is very strong and how i wish that my six sense will be wrong.
but every time i think back all i think is make sense..is it i thinking too much or that is true and God wan me to face the fact and just give up and den leave.
went out with jieh hong today have a good chat with him and he said to me that i still got a lot of things to be learn and yes that is true i still gt so so so much thing to learn yet i am stuck here now..how foolish is that..i am just hoping it will be wrong.

2011-03-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

why every time blame me for everything? i did nth yet every time have to blame me..every time is my fault..i have the right to choose what i wan what i wan to do but every time what i chose u will unhappy. every time i am the one who feeling guilty who have to give in to choose what you wan. dad is right i am too soft hearted that why every time i feel guilty easily..not my fault yet have to blame myself for making things bad.. when i wan to make thing better wan to do wat you wan yet you will always tell me nvm nvm nvm...why?i really don know..i am lost really lost..i don know which way to go which direction to go to choose.

2011-02-21T19:46:00.000+08:00

i really don know what is inside ur mind...every time i have to guess what is the next step u will do.
sometime i have to keep thinking who you with and what you doing. i feeling super tired. physically and mentally tired.
sometime i really do wan to tell u wat is inside my mind what am i thinking what i wan but i afraid once i tell you u will lie to me. so i choose not to tell rather than hear your lies.
wat shall i do?i don know. i guess maybe i just need some break to go for a holiday to relax myself first.

2011-02-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

thing has getting worst..and become really bad that really can't turn back. i don't know wat to do now and what else can i do to make it better. sometime really feeling very shitty really sucks!
i know i am really lousy and is damn lousy that no one will better than me..really...
really fuck up somtime but i can't do anything at all..don have the power the strength to do..
two words to describe are lousy and useless!

2011-01-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

again i cried..was really too much and i can't take it and my tear just flow..
at the point of time i really don know wat to do and don know who should i turn to and there is no one i can turn to also...while typing my tear drop again..was hurt was angry...seriously i don like it..i hate it very much...

2011-01-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

is kind of hurt actually...but i couldn't say out that i am hurt...a very deep hurt...
other than keep in silent and always smile and laugh like a retard there is nothing i can do..
i know i am stupid for not saying anything but that is me..i hate being like that too but no choice i born out to be like that..:( how i wish i can be strong and not being 'luan luo'.
God please help me...i don wan to be like this anymore. please i need your help through this.

2011-01-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

i keep quiet doesn't mean i am afraid of you..i am not! i keep tolerate you i keep telling myself not to be angry because the words that come out from your stupid mouth...but seriously i have enough of that.. not even 8 hours you alr make me pissed off more than 3 times...can you imagine if i work with you like one whole day? i think i will die seriously..why should i tolerate you...u know i feel like shouting at you infront of everybody but i chose not to as i still respect you...but please don go too far..one day you will know my temper...watch out!

2011-01-16T03:47:00.000+08:00

today suddenly have a feeling wanna to take a cig to smoke...i really don't know why...feeling so frustrated...damn pissed off...one smoke will it cure everything? i guess no...
eating ice cream will make my mood better last time but i don think it work now..absolutely no...no longer work...not anymore... i am not emo-ing....is somehow got something is trouble me make me super unhappy.. and thats is also why i feel wanna smoking.first time really this is the first time..i hate ppl smoking but yet i thinking of to smoke now...what happen to me? am i kind of insane? yes. maybe.

2011-01-15T00:32:00.000+08:00

代替品？replacement?
really speechless! there is nothing i can say anymore.. not even a single word.
sometime i really don know what am i doing and why am i doing that..
who am i? i don know..i feel that i also don't know my own self well..

2011-01-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

i got my o'level result yesterday. i don't know should i be happy or sad...the sad thing is i failed my english i got D7 for my english and have to retake next year but the happy is i still can go poly which some other people can't even they passed their english.. there is limited courses for me to take i don't know wat to choose also i have to choose 8 courses as my choices which is really hard for me..until now i still don know wat courses to take which is gd for me which i am interest in i really don know.. :(

2011-01-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

i had cut my hair..and is kind of short to me...but its ok..hair will grow(please be fast:) ).
and i am thinking to highlight and perm my hair to change a new hair style...should i? i am really very worry i worry that it will not suit me. how? how? how?

today went to sp and np...looking the course..somehow i more interest in business courses rather than science and engineering. but i really don know what to do and i am worry that i will regret and affect my future after i had make my choice. pray to God that He will guide me and i will not regret what i had chose. Monday is a big day for all the O'level graduated students. getting our result back on monday at 2pm. is kind of scary. :(

2011-01-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

really hurt when every time saw that..really! but what can do...this is what i chose can't blame anybody except myself. i thought everything will change but i was wrong. completely wrong!

2010-12-30T01:02:00.000+08:00

today went to hush puppies work..it was the first tme work at there and i think it would be the last time also...the job is easy not much things to do...so was damn bored to me..i rather have a lot of work to do than nothing to do and just stand there be a statue..and i am really bad in ironing clothes. i burnt my hand just now and was hurt and gt blister on my finger now..
blisters all over me. legs and hand..damn weak can...recently listen to a new song by elva. i think the song was wrote especially for me..

2010-12-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

TIRED!! this is the only one word to describe how i feel right now. :(

2010-12-24T18:48:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE! took some photo before going out.

2010-12-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

my heart and mind are telling me two different things. i just don't know wat to do anymore....and sometimes you really just don know what to say. becasue, wat you really want to say; is something that you just cannot say.

2010-12-22T12:34:00.001+08:00

wat is my feeling now? sad?angry? i don know...somehow have a little piss off and tear drop after saw that..even listen to song also will cry...when did i start to become so weak? so lousy? shame of myself.. really.. i hate myself to being like this..shit myself...
Jing Yee you have to be strong...have to be strong like last time...u are not that kind of person that will cry easily..pls be strong i beg u..

is time to be alone for a walk i guess.

2010-12-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

was kind of tired today...woke up at 8am to visit doctor at jurong west..and spent 150 on all the medi that the doctor gave me..is kind of expensive and feeling heart pain although is not my money..but just hope that my skin problem will get better and i don mind spending money on stuff that is good for me..
after that went to meet andy at cck with mummy and went to taka to shop..mummy treated andy just now..isn't mummy is good first time see him alr treated him so nice..haha...mummy spent a lot of money on me today, the medi,undergarment and food..she is really very good..shall go out more with her..haha..opps! Jing Yee don take thing for granted. definitely i will not as i know she is kind of busy with her work where gt so much time to go shopping with me...but i still love you mummy even though sometime u treat me unfairly. erm christmas is coming in few days time looking forward to it..i shall end here not much things to write alr and i shall rest early tonight. good nite!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CARIE WONG! may all her wish will come true and become more prettier and faster find a boyfriend..haha.. love you!

2010-12-20T02:04:00.001+08:00

today i mean yesterday was the last day of work(after 12am)...7 days of warehouse sales finally had ended! stand 12hrs each day..have to keep folding and folding the clothes...was easy to do that but can u imagine when you had just folded nicely and neatly according to their sizes yet customers go and mess up again den u have to fold again...one or two times is alright but it was more than 10 times ..have to keep folding..sometime..no no no no is almost everyday will be frustrated of this..ok enough of the complain.. i have to stop complaining and i shall head to my comfort bed and hug my winnie to be sleeping beauty..good night! :)

Blog alive again!

2010-12-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

Back to blog again..it had been quite a long time since i blog.
today was the first day and also the first time went out to work for ppl...working is not an easy job seriously..
damn tired working non-stop for couples of hours..legs and hands waas painful...have to unpacked everything arrange them according to their sizes..sound easy but there were a lot to do...after dinner at admirathy walked back home alone for around 30mins..love the walk actually although to many people it is unsafe for walking home alone at night. but i do love it sometime to quiet down myself..this also help me to do some reflection wat i had done for the passed few days..had been thinking a lot through the 30mins walk...walking alone when you gt things to trouble u or feeling down it help the way a person thinking..
tmr still have to work for 12 hours..its a long day! have to go to my lalaland to be sleeping beauty alr..gd nite people! :)

2010-04-18T18:05:00.001+08:00

i am here update again...
erm...today is sunday n also is family day...but today i didn't go out with my family..
they went to malaysia..as i have hmk haven finish n have test tmr so i didn't go...
sad!cant go out with them...one week only one day can go out with them yet i cant go...
stupid hmk stupid test..hate it so much....hate to study...its sucks...
so wat is i hate it..i still have to study...
last week only study for one day due to the rehearsal for speech day on friday...
teacher taught new chapter yet i not in the class...don know how to catch up anot..
mid year is coming..two more weeks...haiz..will die man....
busy busy busy!!!last week was busy with speech da...after speech day is EXAM...
no life can.. erm..i think i shall stop here...will update agn...

2010-04-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

i am here to update...i know i have not been update quite a long time...

i am sry....today i am here to update is becoz alot of things inside my heart...

i don know wat to do...this few days while doing my hmk my tear just drop...

a lot a lot of things come into my mind...i don know how...

i cant concentrate in my study ...

i feeling very stress up...very fan...

i was thinking tt if i die will it be better?

better for mii n better for others ppl also...

i think i shall stop here..my tear was keep dropping now..

hope my eyes wont swollen tmr...

2010-02-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

hii guys..i am here to update....
today nvr go gb...coz i am tired n not feeling well this few days...
ytd just nose just bleeded...
erm...today woke up by xinni about 9plus...
den around 12 went to yunxuan's house to bai nian also meet xinni they all...
after tt around 1 plus went to christina's house by cab...
den start to ply card...i lost...
at first lost only abit...but in the end...i lost 40 plus....
very xin tong loh..
my money was gone...sob sob!!!
total i lost from the first day of new year until now gt around 80 plus...
first time lost so much....my heart super pain loh...
lucky only one year one time...if not...will die man...hahaz..
tmr need to go malaysia to bai nian again...so sure will very late come back home tmr...
common test is coming...from monday onward i will keep study for my CMT...
need to memorise alot alot of things...hope this time i wil get A for my maths....
erm..i shall wrote until here..will try to update often...
bye!!!!

2010-02-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

i am here to update....

having a big headache now...

erm...this few days keep having test..tmr also have test...

argh!sick n tired of it...tmr have physic test..just revised finish...

erm..from last friday until now my mood not very gd..

thanks to someone...
must really thanks the person...

thanks you for letting my mood so down since friday...

i hate to see ur face,hate to hear ur voice watever u do i just hate it...

to mii watever u do is all fake...u r just acting infront of ppl...

wan ppl to with u....to support...so wat?y should u take away my things?

watever things i have u also wan to take away from mii...wan to have it...

when u will stop all this?since last year u alr take away alot of things from mii alr...

wat should i do?haiz...no one will know how i feel now...

angry?sad?i myself also don know...

so wat if i am angry or upset ?will the thing be change?i don think so...

sry for posting all this things here...

i don know where can i say all things other than here....

only here i can throw all my feeling,the words that inside my brain out...

i shall stop here...if not my tear will drop soon...

2010-01-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

hey guys...i am here to update alr...sry for not been updated for so so so so long...

really sry...PLS FORGIVE MI!!!hahaz..

finally have time for mii to update....

from the start of the sch until now...everyday have hmk...

the hmk is not just one or 2....is alot...n most of the day have test...

gonna gone crazy...somemore everyday end sch at 4pm except for friday n wed..

wed end at 6pm,friday end at 12.30pm..love friday the most...hahaz....

time flies..now alr is 27 Jan 2010....chinese new year is coming...

yeahz !!! can get alot alot of hong bao...hahaz...

but after chinese new year have to study very very hard again for 0'level...

the first paper is MT n is on 31 May...is so fast..is around 4 more month...

then other paper is on october onward i think...

the time fly until i am afraid to wake up the next day...i wish tt can no need to wake up... no need to face the world...

no need to care about o'level...haiz...

shall end here bah...will try to updated more often..byeee!

十多年的感情说变就变.

要怎样才永远不会变？

2009-12-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

hii guys...sry for not been update for so long...

due to my lazyness...really sry about tt...

erm...shall said about BGB combine camp first...monday just came back from BGB combine camp...

the camp is fun n very relax...enjoy it...first time camp stayed at resort n have BBQ at nite..

this camp was really very slack...but the most bored things that make mii very sleepy was the workshop...

den i took my camp booklet to draw so tt i will not fall asleep..other than the workshop others still ok...not so bored..hahaz..

erm...today woke up at 8.30am to go to ting to take something....

after tt went to meet kenneth at cwp mac...coz he wanna teach mi Amath and Geo...

3 hours i only do one SEQ and less than 5 Amath questions..hahaz..

still have alot of holiday homework haven done...i will continue after back from HK...

shall stop here..tmr have to wake up at 5.30am to prepare...7.30am must reach airport...the plane will fly at 9 plus...and 23 dec i will be back around 7pm plus will reach sg...

so...see ya!sayonara! :)

(L0VE) groups photo

5 of us sleep in one room on the last nite of the camp...

S.J.Y was drew by mii and the MARY is drew by sir kian peng during the workshop..haha

my name card!

2009-11-17T08:51:00.001+08:00

i am here to update...quite a long time didn't update alr...hahaz..
i am in sch now...having english lesson..today have 3hours of english...
seriously i only have one word to decribe the lesson is 'boring'..super boring...
today the time pass very slow...now only 8.40am..still have long way to go...
today have 3 hours of english..hiaz...boring! boring! boring!
having a bad headache now...since friday...haven recover..
feeling not very well..u cant imagine how painful izzit...
sometime pain until i feel wanna cry...hope the pain will stop soon...
erm...i think i shall end here..have to do some research alr...
will update photo soon..see u!!!